This is a pending devotional log from weeks ago, on my first Sunday from status as a clerk.
It has become difficult to commit to daily Bible reading and journaling, with the way my schedule has been, since I am currently on my major clerkship rotations. But help me Lord to continue to keep at it, if not daily, the best way I can. I do not want to increase in just knowledge and skills and it is my prayer that I would not lose compassion, or be jaded, with the way we are being treated versus the way we want to be treated.
Love remains to be the answer, and I know that I need to regularly spend time with You, the Source, so I would not wither. By your grace Lord, I am hopeful that all these hardships will yield fruit in the right time. May those fruits bring you glory Lord. May I bring you glory Lord.
Wednesday, August 7, 2019
Wednesday, May 22, 2019
Essay: Why Is the Bible Relevant Today?
I am currently in the process of tidying up, and I'm torn between throwing and keeping this certificate...
...I decided to keep an electronic copy instead (I'm so bright!..haha) and keep a copy of the winning essay as well. I was first out of 3 contestants, and the oldest as well..haha. Our church organized the essay writing contest as part of the Bible Month Celebration last January and I participated because I was afraid nobody would join and I wanted to honor our church's efforts. I guess I missed writing as well so it was a good excuse to go back despite being busy in school.
Honestly, I did not think I would win, because although I would meet the criteria on organization, grammar, etc.; content-wise, I thought my essay was too personal, and intentionally so, because I wrote it just one random morning as part of my quiet time when my morning classes were canceled. Since my intention was to have an entry, I did not want to stress so much over the essay, as I have in past contests..hehe; else, I won't be able to come up with an entry at all. So I revised the guide question a bit and made it into Why is the Bible Relevant To Me? And winning was an unexpected sweet bonus because it came with a cash prize (yey!), although I felt bad a bit when I learned that I competed against high school students. I initially thought that it wasn't fair because I had the advantage, but that's my pride talking so sorry Lord and thank you na lang po!
Enough with the backstory, here's my essay - a reminder for me that I'm always a winner in the Lord when I write from my heart:)
...I decided to keep an electronic copy instead (I'm so bright!..haha) and keep a copy of the winning essay as well. I was first out of 3 contestants, and the oldest as well..haha. Our church organized the essay writing contest as part of the Bible Month Celebration last January and I participated because I was afraid nobody would join and I wanted to honor our church's efforts. I guess I missed writing as well so it was a good excuse to go back despite being busy in school.
Honestly, I did not think I would win, because although I would meet the criteria on organization, grammar, etc.; content-wise, I thought my essay was too personal, and intentionally so, because I wrote it just one random morning as part of my quiet time when my morning classes were canceled. Since my intention was to have an entry, I did not want to stress so much over the essay, as I have in past contests..hehe; else, I won't be able to come up with an entry at all. So I revised the guide question a bit and made it into Why is the Bible Relevant To Me? And winning was an unexpected sweet bonus because it came with a cash prize (yey!), although I felt bad a bit when I learned that I competed against high school students. I initially thought that it wasn't fair because I had the advantage, but that's my pride talking so sorry Lord and thank you na lang po!
Enough with the backstory, here's my essay - a reminder for me that I'm always a winner in the Lord when I write from my heart:)
WHY IS THE BIBLE RELEVANT TODAY?
Not all people have had the blessing of being exposed to the Bible at a young age, and as I reflect on it now, I cannot imagine how I would have turned out as a human being, a citizen, a daughter, sister, friend, student, and the many other things I am now to others, if I did not have the wonderful privilege of knowing and learning from the Bible.
As a child, I looked at it as a wealth of stories with lessons on strength, bravery, obedience, love, patience, kindness, generosity, trust and many others. My parents and my teachers on the other hand, made good use of my delight in those stories to instill those virtues in me and introduce me to the greatest hero, Jesus Christ. It was not until I approached my late school age and teenage years that I learned of the foreign comic book superheroes that we patronize in the movies today; but as for the stories of Noah’s ark, Queen Esther, Daniel in the lion’s den, Moses and the parting of the Red Sea, I knew them by heart; and at a time when I was still sheltered from real life’s challenges, they were among my first models of faith and trust in the Lord.
In my teenage years, when my doubts and insecurities were at their peak, the Bible became a source of wisdom and comfort. I remember the many nights that I felt down and alone as I experienced the world for the first time without the security of home. I would open my Bible crying not knowing what to do, and I would finish reading crying still, but this time, with a sense of strength and hope, overwhelmed with the truth that the Lord is always with me, that He loves me, and that I can do all things through Him who strengthens me. Living alone in college was one of the most difficult times of my life, especially with the death of our mother, but it was also the time that I learned to really seek the Lord in prayer and meditation of His Word. As I sought Him, the Lord used that time in return to instruct me, mold me, and increase my knowledge of Him through our personal time together while studying his Word, as part of a church with teaching and sermons anchored on the Bible, and as part of a small group sharing our insights and encouraging one another through the truths we learn from the Bible.
After college, the responsibilities were greater, the problems were more challenging, and the decisions I had to make became more difficult. The Bible remained for me, as a source of strength, wisdom, comfort and guidance, but at a level that matched my needs. For while it does not change its contents, and although I have read it from cover to cover, it always speaks to me in a new way. Or in other times, it speaks to me in the same way, but in my frailty the Lord knew that I needed to be reminded, and there He was, patiently teaching me with the same chapters and verses, and honoring my heart’s prayer to become a better child and servant of His each day. In the same way that I loved the Lord more as I knew more of Him, I needed the Bible more as I learned more of it – not just holding on to His truths for the big decisions, challenges and milestones; but more so for the daily character-building and seemingly small moments of instruction, when He was actually preparing me to shape up when the big moments come along.
The Bible, God’s Word, is indeed relevant today as it was to me in the past and in the days to come. Its message transcends time, culture, language, changing needs and individual differences; just as God’s love is for all, breaking through all barriers, even our sin. I praise God for the freedom and privilege to experience the transforming power of His Word, and the opportunity to share it to others, that they may also know of Jesus Christ and His life-changing gift, just as it continually changes mine.
Friday, November 9, 2018
Living Up to My Name
Someone just updated her blog banner and layout..hehe
I finally had good use of the picture of that wonderful sunset that I took when I joined a medical mission in Palawan. I don't know how to take great pictures, but such beauty, thankfully, did not require any special skill to be captured.
I'm almost at the end of my shortest semestral break yet (two weeks lang!!!) and going back to writing has been on my agenda when I planned how I wanted to spend this short break meaningfully.
Yesterday was about enrollment and a few errands. The day before that was catch up and accountability time with my growth group leader Kat and wrapping some Christmas gifts. Last week was about helping our classmates and batchmates pass their exams by providing rationale for the past exam questions with some baking and buying of school books on the side.
It's funny how I somehow get to do more when the break is shorter. I once again proved to myself that the lack of time is not the issue...that I should not be asking for more of it because we have all been given the same 24 hours a day. What I need help with from the Lord is on gaining the awareness of how short the time given to me is...to number my days aright, that I may gain a heart of wisdom (Psalm 90:12).
As I hope that I could write and process my thoughts more often from now on, here's one to document a milestone I reached in this short break...
More than ever, I am proud of myself for taking the biggest leap in overcoming my personal issues - and that is by confessing them to an accountability partner. I thank the Lord for the life of my growth group leader Kat and for the spiritual sisterhood and community that we have. To have someone check on you on sensitive stuff can be scary and shameful for most people, but of the concrete steps I've taken in the past to overcome my pet sins, this has been the most difficult to do. I had no doubt that Kat would minister to me with truth and grace, and that I can come to her as I can come to Jesus, freely and without fear; but the biggest obstacle that I had to overcome was myself, and my pride I guess, because for a long time I've been convincing myself that I can deal with it on my own. But I can't explain how freeing it was when I finally shared things with her. Now, when I have to battle with my thoughts, I am reminded that I have an extra filter, and that I am not alone in the fight not only spiritually but also physically.
In the present time, perhaps people would say that I'm being too hard on myself with these issues that I have. But they are big deal for me. My name Katrina means "purity", and it has always been my prayer to the Lord that He help me live up to my name, not only in the eyes of other people but even in the most secret portion of my heart and mind that only He and I am aware of. I want to be holy as He is holy. I know I can never be perfectly pure, but I intend to do my part in my desire to be "set apart" for His glory, foremost by committing in my heart to obey His will. This is also part of my personal preparation for the partner I am praying to have in the future as the Lord wills it:) Not that I'm feeling that the time is near; on the contrary, I feel that my current season cannot include a significant other yet; but regardless of whether I'm bound to meet him soon or not, I intend to be the best version of myself.
I know this would be a lifetime battle until I get to be with Him in heaven. But I intend to do my best, with the motivation from God's Word - "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God." (Matthew 5:8). And for me, to see You Lord is the greatest reward :)
Thank you Lord for your sufficient grace.
And of course, this part of my journey would not be complete without my theme songs..hehe..Thank you Lord for Spotify:)
Masterpiece by Tori Kelly ft. Lecrae
Just As Sure by Tori Kelly and Jonathan McReynolds
Whole by Jonathan McReynolds feat. India Arie
Maintain by Jonathan McReynolds feat. Chantae Cann
P.S. Can I just say how much I love Tori Kelly and the entire Hiding Place album! And learning about Jonathan McReynolds' music was a bonus!
I finally had good use of the picture of that wonderful sunset that I took when I joined a medical mission in Palawan. I don't know how to take great pictures, but such beauty, thankfully, did not require any special skill to be captured.
I'm almost at the end of my shortest semestral break yet (two weeks lang!!!) and going back to writing has been on my agenda when I planned how I wanted to spend this short break meaningfully.
Yesterday was about enrollment and a few errands. The day before that was catch up and accountability time with my growth group leader Kat and wrapping some Christmas gifts. Last week was about helping our classmates and batchmates pass their exams by providing rationale for the past exam questions with some baking and buying of school books on the side.
It's funny how I somehow get to do more when the break is shorter. I once again proved to myself that the lack of time is not the issue...that I should not be asking for more of it because we have all been given the same 24 hours a day. What I need help with from the Lord is on gaining the awareness of how short the time given to me is...to number my days aright, that I may gain a heart of wisdom (Psalm 90:12).
As I hope that I could write and process my thoughts more often from now on, here's one to document a milestone I reached in this short break...
More than ever, I am proud of myself for taking the biggest leap in overcoming my personal issues - and that is by confessing them to an accountability partner. I thank the Lord for the life of my growth group leader Kat and for the spiritual sisterhood and community that we have. To have someone check on you on sensitive stuff can be scary and shameful for most people, but of the concrete steps I've taken in the past to overcome my pet sins, this has been the most difficult to do. I had no doubt that Kat would minister to me with truth and grace, and that I can come to her as I can come to Jesus, freely and without fear; but the biggest obstacle that I had to overcome was myself, and my pride I guess, because for a long time I've been convincing myself that I can deal with it on my own. But I can't explain how freeing it was when I finally shared things with her. Now, when I have to battle with my thoughts, I am reminded that I have an extra filter, and that I am not alone in the fight not only spiritually but also physically.
In the present time, perhaps people would say that I'm being too hard on myself with these issues that I have. But they are big deal for me. My name Katrina means "purity", and it has always been my prayer to the Lord that He help me live up to my name, not only in the eyes of other people but even in the most secret portion of my heart and mind that only He and I am aware of. I want to be holy as He is holy. I know I can never be perfectly pure, but I intend to do my part in my desire to be "set apart" for His glory, foremost by committing in my heart to obey His will. This is also part of my personal preparation for the partner I am praying to have in the future as the Lord wills it:) Not that I'm feeling that the time is near; on the contrary, I feel that my current season cannot include a significant other yet; but regardless of whether I'm bound to meet him soon or not, I intend to be the best version of myself.
I know this would be a lifetime battle until I get to be with Him in heaven. But I intend to do my best, with the motivation from God's Word - "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God." (Matthew 5:8). And for me, to see You Lord is the greatest reward :)
Thank you Lord for your sufficient grace.
And of course, this part of my journey would not be complete without my theme songs..hehe..Thank you Lord for Spotify:)
Masterpiece by Tori Kelly ft. Lecrae
Just As Sure by Tori Kelly and Jonathan McReynolds
Whole by Jonathan McReynolds feat. India Arie
Maintain by Jonathan McReynolds feat. Chantae Cann
P.S. Can I just say how much I love Tori Kelly and the entire Hiding Place album! And learning about Jonathan McReynolds' music was a bonus!
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