Happy 6th Months My Love!

While we're not big on monthsaries and have only used them as markers for our monthly devotion, scheduled dates and realignment as a couple, I still felt extra grateful today for our 6th month as husband and wife.

The past months have been both easy and challenging, and I thank you, my Love, for holding my hand through every season - for making me laugh everyday, and for hugging me extra tight on times that I get sad or sick. I have also learned a lot about myself through your eyes in such a short amount of time. Thank you for appreciating me as I am and for making me feel beautiful despite my flaws. Thank you for encouraging me to be honest about my feelings and wants with you, and to come to you as I am, assuring me that you will not love me less even when I'm not at my best. Thank you for your servant leadership in our family, for being a good provider, our strong handyman, and for being my rock and supporter. Thank you for not letting me succumb to old patterns, always drawing me with your love and strength to share my burdens with you. Thank you for indulging my requests for "sundo" even when you're tired. Seeing you after a tiring duty calms me and gives me joy:)

Much of my plans have already changed, and for the better, because of you. Pinapalakas mo ang loob ko lagi, drawing me to take leaps of faith with your hand holding mine. I am still a work in progress....6 months pa lang namaaaan..haha..but I am sure that I am so much better, and much much happier because of you.

Please continue to be patient with me my Love, forgiving me for the times I have done you wrong. I hope I'm much more gentle when God grants our prayer for a baby (samahan kita magpray for a daughter in His perfect time). I hope I am also able to make you feel loved, valued, and supported at all times. The past 6 months make me excited for what is to come because the Lord blessed me to have you as my husband, and with Him, I am assured that the best is yet to come! See you later:)

I love you!

Happy Birthday My Love 💖

 Dearest Ivan,

My recent IG posts about you and about us were outside my comfort zone, but I wanted to show you how grateful I am to you and for you. So when you assured me in one of our talks that social media posts are not necessary, and that you feel loved and appreciated with the usual things I do, I thought of doing something else for your birthday...like welcoming you to my semi-private space..haha

A year ago I was just convincing myself that you were asking me out on your birthday as a good friend, but we have come a long way:). When I greeted you on your 25th, I never imagined that I would be greeting you this way on your 26th, that you would earn a spot in my space, and that you would become a very important person in my life. The past year reminded me that God's ways and thoughts are higher than mine, but I can trust Him because He not only loves me, but He is also the giver of perfect gifts:)

You are one of His best gifts, and so far, the most wonderful surprise😊

I thank the Lord each day for giving you to me and as He adds another year to your life, I pray for his favor and special blessing upon you and all that you do. May your knowledge and wisdom continue to increase, loving God more as you know more about Him. May He continue to equip you to lead our relationship and the people He's entrusted you with in your ministry. May He grant the wishes of your heart, and may you always be filled with strength, hope, joy, and everything You will need to achieve great and mighty things for God and your family:)

I love you and I will always be here to support you!

Happy birthday again my love! I hope you enjoyed our advance celebrations pero kahit work day na today, I hope you enjoy your day! Sana walang masyadong challenges sa work pero 'pag meron, sana maayos agad para di ka stressed..hehe

I love you!

Love,

Katy

P.S. I'll grab our most recent photos from you so I can update this:)

Graduation Speech

 “Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” (James 1:17)

 

This is the Word from God that I kept in my heart when five years ago, I was offered the opportunity to study Medicine and pursue becoming a doctor. I was already working as a nurse then, and have started on my post-graduate studies, contented with my calling but with the desire to be the best nurse I can be. In my heart, I have always desired to do more in the healing profession; but to be a doctor, at that stage in my life, seemed like a big, burdensome, almost impossible dream that I never even considered it. The opportunity came as a surprising gift. I had no doubt it was good, but I had to test if it was perfect. 

 

Five years of God’s faithfulness later, I have no doubt that the calling, this gift, is from God, and it is indeed good and perfect. I can only look back in awe at how He provided for me, guided me, sustained me, and enabled me to achieve great things beyond my imagination – from getting a good score in the NMAT, leading me to FEU-NRMF, giving me a scholarship that allowed me to study Medicine for free, to enabling me to do my best and excel not just to maintain the scholarship but also to train me to become the best doctor I can be. I can still remember that night, when I was crying in frustration while reviewing for our first Gross Anatomy prelim exam because I felt that I could not remember things even after reading them multiple times. I took a moment to pray and cried my heart out to God in surrender, then kept on reading anyway. That exam was my turning point, as I found myself knowing the answer to most of the questions, to my surprise. I knew it was God’s favor, and from then on, I just pressed on and did my best. I never thought it would get me here. All glory and praise to God alone!  

 

He has also blessed me with a wonderful family, and I would like to take this opportunity to honor my parents - Mama Susie and Mama Josie for the values you’ve taught us when we were young, I know you’re watching over us from heaven. Papa, thank you for supporting my decision even if it meant delaying your retirement. The journey could have been difficult and lonely, but I’ve always felt you, Ate Angel and Micah walking with me, making sure that I can focus on my studies 100%. 

 

Beyond my family, it took a village to send this medical student to school, and our whole family is grateful to you Maam, for being my benefactor in secret, for believing in me and asking for nothing in return except that I do my best. Thank you Tito Jorge for your constant support, which, to me, has become a symbol of our Mamas’ support of my dream. I also thank my relatives both in the Paglicawan and Aguilar clan, for all your prayers, encouragement, and support in all forms. I give my utmost gratitude to FEU-NRMF School of Medicine for the generous academic scholarship, and to the FEU-DNRSM Alumni Foundation thru Dr. Hernani Tansuche, particularly Class 1960, for accepting yours truly as a scholar and for believing in my dream. The foundation not only sustained my medical education but even generously allowed me to gain global elective experience. I treasure all these in my heart, and I hope to pay it forward one day when I am able.

 

 I also share this achievement with our mentors at the FEU-NRMF School of Medicine, including the consultants and residents, who have made training young aspiring doctors their calling, patiently sharing their knowledge to us and helping us not only to understand, but also to develop the discipline and desire for continuous learning. You did not make it easy for us, but we know that the constant challenge was meant to instill in us a greater appreciation of what it means and takes to become a physician.

 

We can look back and focus on what this journey took from us – time, energy, resources, at times our own health; but perhaps, everyone would agree that we have gained so much more and high above in the list are our friends, classmates and batchmates who shared not only notes, ‘transes’, and ‘samplexes’, but also bonded with us in our worries, tears, struggles and victories, both big and small. Let me take this opportunity to thank my classmates in 1D, 2F, 3F and Prime I, especially my inner and consistent circle then and now, Kirs foremost, then Ags. I may not be able to name each one but I am very grateful to you all for accepting me and showing me kindness. I cannot imagine getting this achievement without all the help you have extended to me, Ate Kat. To the transmakers of the batch, thank you for your generosity and hard work that have allowed most, if not all of us, to prepare for every exam more efficiently. 

 

I also would like to recognize those who have made my past four years more colorful and fruitful: my quiz bee and CPC teammates under the guidance of Dr. Vila and Dr Tagayuna respectively – doctors and educators at heart who have taught us lessons beyond the four walls of the classroom;  and my LUKEMD family led by our advisers, Dr. Viterbo and Dr. Ravelo, who helped us appreciate the greater purpose of who we are and what we do in God’s bigger plan.

 

I still hold on to that greater purpose, that while we, RCCO Class 2020, will forever go down in history as the batch who missed their graduation ceremony because of the COVID-19 pandemic, and who is now faced with a greater uncertainty of what lies ahead, we have victoriously finished the first step, and our journey, as aspiring doctors, continues. The current situation revealed to the world that the path we have chosen is dangerous and difficult, yet the need and the call is urgent and immensely significant. Years from now, we may find each other in different fields, but I pray that we may find each other serving nonetheless, always doing our best, for God, our patients, ourselves, our family, and our country. 

 

Congratulations Class 2020 and may our good Lord bless us all! 

My Yes to God Led Me Here

I'm still on a high...we all are...with the release of the list of FEU-NRMF School of Medicine Class 2020 graduates last night. I was so sure I would graduate..haha..even learned of the award I will be receiving a few days prior because they asked me to write something for the yearbook (will keep a copy of that here too!), yet to be able to celebrate it with the people who went through the highs and lows of med school with me is an entirely different experience. 

Friends are asking why I'm not posting on Facebook..haha. They've been used to it by now but this one's different, they say. It crossed my mind too, as I want to give back all the glory to God and let the people in my past and present world know of His goodness and faithfulness in my life. But privacy won and I opted to share in the celebration of our batch via IG where I have fewer friends, mostly from med school. I also sent a private message to the people I'd like to thank instead, for journeying with me, supporting me and helping me achieve this dream of becoming a doctor, one step at a time.

People have been congratulating me, and despite missing our graduation ceremony because of the pandemic, it still is a great victory, and I can only stand in awe of how the Lord directed me to this path, provided for everything I needed and more, and sustained me not only to make it through each day, but also to excel. There are many things that I do not deserve in this life, and the bigger the gift or the achievement, the more overwhelmed I become of God's favor in my life and my family then until now. My only contribution to all these is my whole-hearted response to the call. By giving me the desire to pursue becoming a doctor and exchange my well-laid plans with an uncertain future, the Lord invited me four years ago to give up control, throw away my timeline, not think about what others would think or say, and just TRUST HIM. Making that decision, to truly entrust my future to Him, was the most liberating and life-changing decision for me so far, after accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior.

And it wasn't without a struggle. I took my time deciding Lord, didn't I?..haha..You know I am hardly spontaneous (you wired me this way..haha) and that I've learned to protect myself from unnecessary disappointments by rejecting entitlement as much as I can, not letting myself dream of things that seem impossible, or whose fulfillment would involve other people beyond myself. I equated security with contentment, and I refrained from asking for things that I want, and focused on things that I could work hard for. The pain of rejection from way back when I was young ran deep, and my healing came with focusing on what I could give over what I could get or wanted. It didn't help that I am uncomfortable with drastic changes..haha..and You know me so well - that even though I dreamed in my heart to become a doctor, I would never go as far as inquire about it or even consider the possibility, because I knew it would change not only my life, but also that of my family. 

So that dream was shelved in the deepest confines of my heart, only to be forced out unexpectedly by using a generous sponsor who offered to pay for my tuition fees in med school, no matter how expensive they were. I was excited, but I kept myself from being too excited to protect my heart from disappointment. I asked, "What about my plans? My income? My contribution to the family finances? My chances of getting married? My obstetric clock? (this one's funny, coming from someone who never had a boyfriend..haha) Isn't it too late? Am I not too old for this?"; but all these were minor because in my heart the real questions were..."Will my family support me? Will it mean putting their lives on hold too to support my dream? Will I be a burden to them?" because although my tuition is covered, I knew that the expenses would go beyond the already very expensive school fees - for allowance, books, projects, etc. Just the thought of not earning my own money and be totally dependent on others scared me. It scared Papa too, but my sisters were braver, and their full support gave me hope to give it a try and at least take the first steps towards an NMAT and an application. My prayer as I was going through the process was, "Don't lead me too far Lord if this is not your will for me."

But the Lord was probably scratching his head saying, "Can't you see that it is? But I am patient, I'll let you see..." He did, and I never looked back. He changed my Papa's heart...He blessed my sisters' work tremendously and I have never once felt that I was a burden to them...He led me to FEU-NRMF and introduced me to a scholarship opportunity during the orientation, that could provide me with more than enough funds for my books, school materials (a laptop, a tablet), daily needs and more...He gave me the courage to apply and the favor to be accepted...He showed me grace and favor in every class, every exam, every project, and enabled me to meet the requirements to maintain the scholarship...He led me to people who've become my family in this journey...He increased my influence and expanded my territory...and He enabled me to finish, not just strong, but strongest. There were a lot of trials and disappointments too along the way, but not being in control did not scare me. It made me braver, and motivated me to continue, comforted by the knowledge that the One in charge and the One who put me here, is (as the song goes) a Waymaker, Miracle Worker, and a Promise-keeper. 

We still have a long way to go Lord, but despite not knowing what's in store especially with the pandemic,  I am not worried 😊. My role in this partnership is to obey and respond. I do not need to know what your plans for me are exactly. Your unchanging character, your might, and your love for me assures me that it will be awesome! My prayer now, is no longer that you won't lead me too far, but only that You would lead me and help me stay on track (cue You Make Me Brave by Bethel Music). 

All glory to you Lord! Thank you for this victory! 🙏

Love, 

Katrina A. Paglicawan, RN

Doctor of Medicine, Class 2020

Magna Cum Laude 

My Australian Adventure

March 2020 is electives month and I had the wonderful privilege to take up Renal Medicine under UNSW Prince of Wales Clinical School. Who would have thought?..haha. Yet, nothing is impossible in the Lord:) This is also a welcome retreat from our very tiring clerkship rotation (still part of it, but one I was looking forward to..haha), but one that is full of learning, so it's win-win for me.

When I began writing this, I had already been living in Sydney for 2 weeks and was halfway through the month-long elective. My thoughts then were...

        The COVID-19 situation is making things complicated, and I don't know what will happen next week. Back home in the Philippines, community quarantine and curfews have already been implemented in Metro Manila. But I'm taking it one day at a time, grateful for each morning I get to wake up, assured of God's favor and protection. If I may be honest, I'm also a bit worried, but I thank the Lord for whispering peace to my heart each time I feel anxious. It doesn't mean I have the license to be careless though, He made me enter medicine after all for a purpose, so I make sure to practice frequent hand hygiene and I try to stay away from very crowded places.

My Airbnb host says I shouldn't let the virus stop me from making the most of my trip. But I'd rather be careful and come back another time, than enjoy now and expose myself, potentially exposing the people I deal with as well, including my family when I return to the Philippines. But it doesn't mean I haven't been enjoying my stay..haha..Australia is very beautiful (even the cemetery looked breathtaking to me..haha) and I'm very grateful to be here, not just for the learning, but also for the experience.  

This is also my first trip abroad alone, one month long at that, so it was very daunting at first and I got homesick during the first few days I was here. But I adjusted soon enough and I want to keep a record of my experiences as detailed as I can so I can always go back to this amazing experience:)

Day 1
I arrived safely (thank you Lord!) with only one casualty. I lost one bluetooth earphone because it fell and I could no longer find it on the floor inside the plane..huhu..luckily I still have one.
I immediately got a SIM for Wifi and an Opal card.
I thank the Lord for Loi and Kelvin, who fetched me from the airport and treated me to lunch.
Once I got settled in my booked Airbnb, I went to the grocery to get some supplies, then slept early.

It was an 8 hour travel..and I got a window seat:)

First meal with Loi and Kelvin...fresh from the flight! (in all haggardness..hehe)

I wasn't able to take pictures of my room but it was very clean and organized, and Hanny and her husband were very kind hosts. I made good use of the kitchen, and I was also provided a space for my food supplies in the cabinet and in the refrigerator. Lodging is a bit expensive in Australia but Hanny's place is less pricey compared with the others - https://www.airbnb.com/rooms/23717562?s=67&sharer_id=48720447&unique_share_id=7e19ad62-4798-44bd-a80d-3c6dd2f771d7

The neighborhood in Eastlakes was also very apt for me. All the essentials were within walking distance from our place (grocery, pharmacy, bakery, even restaurants and cafes) and I can always spend some time at the Eastlakes Reserve if if didn't feel like going home yet. 

I pass by the park (Eastlakes Reserve) on my way to and from the bus stop daily 

luto-luto din

Day 2 - First Day
I woke up early, had breakfast then prepared to go early.
I arrived before 8am, and took my time looking for the building I was supposed to go to..haha
Today's a very tiring day because aside from joining the rounds, I had to go back and forth from the hospital to the university (a bit far) in heels
Hospital Activities:
-Toured around the renal units
-Joined the doctors' rounds
-Attended the weekly teaching conference (Topic: Advanced Care Planning for CKD patients)
-Attended the Radiology Conference which I appreciated and which I hope we could also have at home

I met Gibson, Zhi and Phoebe (medical students from UNSW); Julian (intern); and Daniel (registrar). I'll be joining the general nephrology team for 2 weeks, then I'll transfer to the transplant team for the final 2 weeks.

Mishaps for the day:
- I left my glasses at The Nucleus. I left it at the table where I put it down as I was having my ID picture taken..I didn't realize it until the staff sent me an email to inform me. I got it back thank you Lord
-I lost my OPAL card..I don't know how..but because Loi told me to register it online I was able to block it and transfer all the balance to my new card..huhu..

Thank you Lord for always having my back.

I was only able to sustain logging every activity for 2 days..haha. As the days went by, I was somehow able to develop a routine:
-Wake up at 5:30am and thank God for another day (2:30am Manila time)
- Take a bath
- Have breakfast
- Walk for 10 minutes to the bus stop and try to catch Bus 357 scheduled at around 7:40am
- Arrive at the POW hospital at around 8am
- Do some reading at the hospital canteen before I go to the ward or the clinic at around 8:30am
- Go around and be a tourist if we were sent home early
- Drop by the grocery near my place before going home to check for sale on chocolates..haha

mandatory early morning selfie at the hospital for my family (part of daily updates..hehe)

       Depending on the activities scheduled for the day, I would usually leave the hospital at 3 or 4pm except on days with conferences (usually Mondays) and scheduled lectures later in the afternoon. I enjoyed the rounds and the clinics, and learned a lot from them. I especially had a great time each time I joined Dr. Fernando in the clinics. She was patient in teaching but she also challenged me with her questions and helped with my physical examination skills as well. I got to see classic signs in patients with rare diseases, that I have only seen in pictures and books. The patients were also very kind in allowing us to sit in, observe, and apply our examination skills. Their participation made a huge difference; because unlike some of the patients I had back home who weren't very keen in allowing us to attend to them because they felt that we were practicing on them, the patients that I have encountered in the wards and in the clinics thought that we have to start somewhere to become good doctors in the future, so they offered their full participation. Through my exposure, I developed a stronger appreciation of renal medicine, and healthcare in general, as I saw the impact it had to people because it was made accessible. I saw long-time lupus patients who did not look like they had it because they were managed well. I also encountered patients with Wegener's granulomatosis, sarcoidosis, and atypical HUS who developed renal complications, on top of the other more common causes such as Hypertension and Diabetes Mellitus. There were a lot of AKI cases in the wards, patients who have undergone multiple kidney transplants, and there were also patients who refused renal replacement therapy and were given best supportive care. As with all healthcare systems, there are challenges in diagnosis and management, but since they have less limitations on tests (there were many tests that I heard for the first time..haha) and resources, the only undiagnosed cases are really the challenging ones.

Also from my experience, I realized that I really have so much to work on in terms of my knowledge and physical examination skills. I will never forget that life lesson from Dr. Fernando...she said that just because we come from a developing country doesn't mean that we should limit our knowledge on the cases that we usually see. We should still know everything, so that wherever we go, we will not have a hard time adjusting. She also emphasized that a good doctor should see, note and observe things that other people usually miss. Mastery comes with practice, but not just mere practice. I should always strive to be best at what I do if I want to be a good doctor in the future. I also appreciated the conferences and the lectures for students, as well as the coordination with the multidisciplinary health care team. Doctors cared about not only the physical health of the patient, but also considered how they will fare at home, referring them to the social worker, OT or PT as needed.

I also got to see snippets of how medical education and training  in Australia are being done. We no longer had the chance to switch teams, but I learned a lot from joining Daniel and Julian, and appreciated the tutorials from Victoria (intern). We also had the chance to observe Nas (registrar) perform renal biopsy at bedside; and all the consultants were very kind and accommodating of this foreign medical student from the Philippines on electives...hehe. I got close to Zhi, a Malaysian UNSW medical student who somehow took me under her wing and toured me around the uni, allowed me to tag along and join their lectures. Their setup is very different with ours, and matches the big difference in our healthcare systems. I hope to go back for training and fellowship in the future, as the Lord wills it.

a small portion of UNSW..haha

POW Clinical School - where med students can study, eat, and access the library

As for my day to day challenge of living well in a far place alone, eventually I had less mishaps..haha..and also became better in figuring out Google maps for directions for public transport.  I truly felt the Lord's hand protecting me and saving me from the consequences of my mistakes..haha. There was one time that I did not realize that I dropped my wallet because I was so amazed of the sea creatures I saw up close at the Sea Life Aquarium, but praise God for the kind lady who called my attention..haha. I also had a problem with my GERD probably because of too much coffee (their flat white is the best!), and also because I wasn't conscious about eating proper meals on time in the first week, and He saved me by leading me to our local pharmacy (very near my place) that sold not only PPIs but also my trusted Bragg apple cider vinegar. It also wasn't all study as I got the chance to tour around the usual spots, museums, malls and markets. I even did the Coogee to Bondi walk straight from morning rounds at the hospital when we were sent home early..hehe. I also went to Taronga Zoo in office attire, in heels..haha. I preferred visiting tourist spots on weekdays, to also lessen exposure with many people, so I tried to squeeze in random visits whenever we had free time at the hospital.

when I was still figuring out how to take a selfie..hehe

About the food, the coffee, cakes and fresh fruits were my favorites! I enjoyed the steak, fish and chips and avocado toast, but eventually missed the Asian cuisines..haha. I visited the usual tourist spots and eventually learned how to take a selfie (was so poor at it at first..huhu), but my most visited place of all time would have to be Woolworths..haha. It was a short walk from where I stayed, and I practically went there everyday. On my 3rd week people started hoarding essentials because of the COVID-19 situation, but I kept coming for the chocolates...haha. I went frequently to check whether the chocolates and snacks I intended to buy were on sale and I got the best deals!!!! I also did some shopping for my sisters and myself at DFO :)

Daily grocery visit..hehe

It was truly an experience of a lifetime. It also was a test of faith because I was still there when they declared that the entire Luzon will be under enhanced community quarantine. My original flight schedule was canceled. It got rescheduled twice but all those also got cancelled. My family was worried about me as well and I thank the Lord for the wisdom and provision of resources to book the last flight home from Sydney to Manila on March 24th. I also praise him for His favor, and for allowing me to settle my requirements, with all of my supervisors expressing support and understanding of the situation. I was still able to participate in the remaining lectures via online access. My original flight booking is still for refund, but what's important is I got home safely. I spent a loooot for excess baggage, because they suddenly decided to weigh the carry on luggage, but it still won't compare to the blessing of being able to catch the last flight. I am grateful for my family especially Ate who arranged the flight for me, my classmates and friends for their prayers, and also for Ate Mary who fetched me from the airport and brought me home. I remember how much I cried that day when all was settled, overwhelmed with the experience of God's sovereignty, His control of the situation, and His love for me :)

Excited to go home! (was there 2 hours before the airport opened..haha)

I remember the flight back and I wasn't worried at all. I was careful - I kept my mask on despite the discomfort it placed on my breathing and I also performed hand hygiene frequently, but all in all I was just so grateful to be on my way home :) The amenities and service of PAL certainly helped me relax as well...so sige na nga keri na yung excess baggage fee, makauwi lang..haha..I missed my family so much and although I enjoyed the sights and all the new experiences I had, I always thought about how it would have been if I was there with them. When I arrived home, I did self-quarantine for 2 weeks just to be sure, and nowadays I'm the designated errand girl for groceries and supplies, which I am happy to do.

one of the events I physically missed - Alfie's birthday!

Thank you Lord for this experience! Thank you as well for my benefactors from the Alumni Foundation who supported this medical student's dream. I never thought it would be possible, but You provided the resources through people I do not know personally, but who believed and supported my desire to see more and maximize my elective learning experience. It made me develop a greater understanding and appreciation of Renal Medicine. I still don't know if this is the path for me because nothing is really certain, but I hope to bring with me everything I've learned as I press on towards becoming the best doctor I can be, all for your glory!

Thank you Lord! You are indeed the giver of perfect gifts! I don't deserve all these but knowing how much you love me, makes me brave to ask for these amazing blessings, trusting that you have the best in store for me, beyond what I could ever ask or imagine:)

Birthday Post: 3 Decades of God's Faithfulness

August 5th of 2019 marked my 30th birthday. It was a quiet one, with precelebration with family on August 3rd in anticipation of my duty from August 4th-5th. I had planned on treating my groupmates, but I was too preooccupied with my JIOD responsibilities I decided to delay it to breakfast the next day.

I just came back from checking on a patient when I saw Kirs and got this sweet surprise from her and Ags:)

...the timing was perfect as well because the orders for dinner got mixed up. And this is one surprise that I was very happy about  - simple, quiet, and thoughtful, but well thought of (caramel macchiato for me!) and from close friends I really miss a lot. We were all busy with our respective duties, and they were about to travel to Pasig that night but they took the time to surprise me. Thank you Lord for Kirs and Ags:)

The rest of the night was spent studying the cases of my patients. I initially felt frustrated because I felt that I did not know and could not answer a lot of things. But it was a good sign, because my emotions reflect my desire to become better for my patients. There's also the added pressure of being supposedly among the "best", but You keep me grounded and inspired at the same time Lord. 

When I woke from a short nap in between studying the cases, I said a short prayer of thanksgiving for the Lord's faithfulness in my life. Shortly thereafter, there was an announcement of cancellation of classes. Skeletal duty will be applied the next day which was a treat for us. I thought the Admission conference I was preparing for would no longer push through, but in your wisdom Lord, you did not want our efforts wasted..hehe..and of course, I am grateful for more learnings on my birthday.

I got home at past 9am and the rest of the day was spent sleeping, then another dinner celebration with the family when I woke up.

There is much I am thankful for. That I don't look like I'm 30 is already a big blessing..haha..and each time I remember what I have and have become, I can only stand in awe of your amazing grace, love, and faithfulness to me and to my family. I still have a long way to go, but as I walk with you Lord, I am confident that I can take one day at a time, and trust that my life is in the perfect hands of the one who loves me and has already planned the best for me. 

Thank you Lord! To more years of your love and faithfulness!

Living Up to My Name

Someone just updated her blog banner and layout..hehe

I finally had good use of the picture of that wonderful sunset that I took when I joined a medical mission in Palawan. I don't know how to take great pictures, but such beauty, thankfully, did not require any special skill to be captured.

I'm almost at the end of my shortest semestral break yet (two weeks lang!!!) and going back to writing has been on my agenda when I planned how I wanted to spend this short break meaningfully.

Yesterday was about enrollment and a few errands. The day before that was catch up and accountability time with my growth group leader Kat and wrapping some Christmas gifts. Last week was about helping our classmates and batchmates pass their exams by providing rationale for the past exam questions with some baking and buying of school books on the side.

It's funny how I somehow get to do more when the break is shorter. I once again proved to myself that the lack of time is not the issue...that I should not be asking for more of it because we have all been given the same 24 hours a day. What I need help with from the Lord is on gaining the awareness of how short the time given to me is...to number my days aright, that I may gain a heart of wisdom (Psalm 90:12).

As I hope that I could write and process my thoughts more often from now on, here's one to document a milestone I reached in this short break...

         More than ever, I am proud of myself for taking the biggest leap in overcoming my personal issues - and that is by confessing them to an accountability partner. I thank the Lord for the life of my growth group leader Kat and for the spiritual sisterhood and community that we have. To have someone check on you on sensitive stuff can be scary and shameful for most people, but of the concrete steps I've taken in the past to overcome my pet sins, this has been the most difficult to do. I had no doubt that Kat would minister to me with truth and grace, and that I can come to her as I can come to Jesus, freely and without fear; but the biggest obstacle that I had to overcome was myself, and my pride I guess, because for a long time I've been convincing myself that I can deal with it on my own. But I can't explain how freeing it was when I finally shared things with her. Now, when I have to battle with my thoughts, I am reminded that I have an extra filter, and that I am not alone in the fight not only spiritually but also physically.

In the present time, perhaps people would say that I'm being too hard on myself with these issues that I have. But they are big deal for me. My name Katrina means "purity", and it has always been my prayer to the Lord that He help me live up to my name, not only in the eyes of other people but even in the most secret portion of my heart and mind that only He and I am aware of. I want to be holy as He is holy. I know I can never be perfectly pure, but I intend to do my part in my desire to be "set apart" for His glory, foremost by committing in my heart to obey His will. This is also part of my personal preparation for the partner I am praying to have in the future as the Lord wills it:) Not that I'm feeling that the time is near; on the contrary, I feel that my current season cannot include a significant other yet; but regardless of whether I'm bound to meet him soon or not, I intend to be the best version of myself.

I know this would be a lifetime battle until I get to be with Him in heaven. But I intend to do my best, with the motivation from God's Word - "Blessed are the pure in heart, for they will see God." (Matthew 5:8). And for me, to see You Lord is the greatest reward :)

Thank you Lord for your sufficient grace.

And of course, this part of my journey would not be complete without my theme songs..hehe..Thank you Lord for Spotify:)
Masterpiece by Tori Kelly ft. Lecrae
Just As Sure by Tori Kelly and Jonathan McReynolds
Whole by Jonathan McReynolds feat. India Arie
Maintain by Jonathan McReynolds feat. Chantae Cann

P.S. Can I just say how much I love Tori Kelly and the entire Hiding Place album! And learning about Jonathan McReynolds' music was a bonus!

New Life at 28

Last Thursday, July 27, 2017, was one fateful day in my life that I would never forget.

It began as a normal rainy day, and even though I was supposed to go out to buy cake for a surprise birthday party for a friend the next day, I made plans to have the cake delivered and when that didn't work, I informed the others that I would just buy cake from a cake shop nearby.

I still had to go out however, to pick up the bacon my sister ordered, but it was just one trike ride from our village so I didn't think I would have any problem with that.

When they (from whom the bacon would come from) notified me that they were leaving from their place (approximately 20-30 mins travel from our meeting place), I also began to get ready. The next text message I received 10 minutes later however, said that they were already nearby. I did not want to make them wait long so I rushed and ran until I reached the village gate to ride a trike. I then crossed the street using the footbridge, also in a fast pace, and I was able to successfully reach the meeting place before they did, although I was panting. I then got the goods from them and they even told me to rest for a while because it was obvious that I was panting. I considered going to a fastfood place or convenience store nearby but I also wanted to reach home before the rain pours hard again so I walked up the footbridge again though in a slower pace this time as I also was carrying additional 5 kilograms with me. I was about to go down the steps when I suddenly started to feel light-headed. It wasn't the first time I felt that way and I knew I had to stop, so I dropped what I was carrying and I took deep breaths. I wanted to sit but I did not know where.

After that, my next memory was as if I was dreaming. I could not open my eyes and I knew I was just lying down, with people hovering over me and trying to help and support me. I heard them deciding to bring me to the hospital and I felt that they carried me. I was so weak my first thoughts were "Lord please I hope this is just a dream", and when I realized that it wasn't, I could only pray "Lord help me."

I do not have clear memories about how I was brought to the hospital and who brought me because I could hardly open my eyes. When my consciousness and strength improved, Ate Marife was already with me because the barangay officials fetched her from our home. Ate Angel, Ate Mary, and Micah arrived a little later. The back of my head hurt, and I'm still nursing a big contusion at the back of my head at present. I also felt very dizzy with the slightest movement which caused me to vomit. The skull x-ray results were clear and I was conscious so I was cleared for discharge. At present, I still worry somehow that something was damaged internally, but I have not experienced any deterioration in my consciousness so I just surrendered my worries to God and asked Him to take them away.

My only concern at the moment is the positional vertigo I've been having but we have been doing exercises to manage it and I know that the Lord will heal me and will not let any harm come upon me, in the same way that He protected me and saved me from worse injury that could have happened given the impact of my fall. I was able to talk with someone who saw what happened, and I praise the Lord that someone attempted to catch me although my weight was too much for him that I still fell and hit my head. I now understand why I do not have any bruise or pain in any other part of my body. She described me as looking pale and lifeless, and that they had difficulty feeling for a pulse. Thankfully they were able to ask for help to bring me to the nearest hospital via ambulance.

Just writing about this now brings tears to my eyes, knowing that it was only by the hand of God that I was saved and given a new life. He sent me many angels, some of them even fellow brothers and sisters in Christ, who not only helped me physically but also kept praying for me as they left. I know this because I was able to get in touch with one of them. I only know her as Ms. Cherry and I got her number because amazingly, she was able to contact previous coworkers of mine in the hospital so they could also lend assistance. When I thanked her and asked if she knew the others who helped me, she had these kind words to say,
"Sa totoo lang hindi ko din sila mga kilala e pero ang nakakatuwa lang they are all there hindi para mag usyoso but they are all willing to help you. Ginamit lang kami ni Lord for you to be safe dun sa area.  Sabi ko nga din sa kanila bago kami maghiwahiwalay ay ipagpray ka namin na makarecover ka at magkaroon ka ulit ng lakas. We keep on praying for you kami ng daughter ko nung nakasakay na kami ng sasakyan. We ask the Holy Spirit to embrace you. Thank you Lord answered prayer naman! 😊
Mag iingat ka palagi ha Katrina.  God bless you! 😊"

I thank you Lord for Ms. Cherry, Teacher Nora, the able officials of Brgy. West Fairview, and all those who helped me and prayed for me. I also thank You for my family, including Ate Mary and Ate Mars who have graciously taken care of me throughout this ordeal. May You bless them abundantly.

And Lord, thank you for saving me not just for eternity but also in this life. With what happened, I realized that I have not been spending my time wisely for the things that truly matter to me- my relationship with you, my family, and the ministry of helping others through healing, among many others. The incident also taught me to be careful, that though I am young I am not invincible, and that I should take care of myself better. I pray that no such danger would come upon me again, but only your will be done in my life Lord. And instead of living in fear or worry that it may happen again, your love teaches me to be fearless and careful at the same time (if there's such a balance😊), knowing that you've given me life and that you keep on preserving my life in your hands for a purpose - to give you glory! I pray that this vertigo will go away for good, and that the tiniest parts of my body that were damaged or misplaced be made right again, so that I could be a more able servant of Yours.

with my improvised neck brace, just to remind me not to lean back or forward too much to prevent vertigo attacks

My 28th birthday this coming Saturday (Aug 5), calls for a more significant celebration of your blessings, love, and protection for me Lord😊. May this overwhelming joy and gratitude in my heart help me overcome for good all my bad habits that are not pleasing in your sight. I live to glorify you Lord. I want to truly mean it with this new life. And I claim victory, yet only by your grace and mercy.

Love,
Katy

Favored at 26

As my birth month comes to a close (almost), allow me once again to thank my Creator, my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit for the gifts of a past that I could learn from and treasure in my heart, a present I can relish- opportunities to do things right and give Him glory, and a future...a bright future I can be sure of, not because I am confident of my abilities but because I believe and I am sure that He who promised is faithful.

You are Faithful...that's what you are Lord, and as I celebrated my 26th birthday, you showed me that you are more than faithful. You not only grant our needs but you also grant favors, the perfect gifts, and our heart's desires according to your will.

This month, I received gifts and favors of all forms and packages and my heart is full of gladness and thanksgiving.

First, I have the gift of family and friends who surprised me, celebrated with me, and made me feel very special.

Second, I received gifts that delighted my heart and made me so happy BIG TIME. Thank you Ate for fulfilling my Baking dream by buy buying an oven and a bigger and better refrigerator; to Papa who only wanted to sponsor my mixer but ended up sponsoring a lot more baking things, and to Micah for giving me extra money which I also spent on more baking things...haha. On top of that, I got my favorite cake from Sugarhouse (also from Ate), and a new Happy Skin Beauty in Bloom blusher to add to my Happy Skin kit (from Ate and Ate Mary). I also got new goblets from Maam Hazel who remembered how much I enjoyed them. I've been using the oven every week since and have been semi-successful (for a first timer..hehe) in roasting chicken, making lasagna, banana cake, and just yesterday, chocolate chip cookies...more to come!

I've also been remembered and greeted by the sweetest friends. Thank you Lord for allowing me to catch up with my college groupmates Barbi and Gregg, for the resources to treat my coworkers in the hospital, my family and my cell group; plus more resources for pending celebrations with my mother cell and praise and worship Team B. Not that I owe anything to this people but I also want to share the blessings I've been receiving to them.

The many holidays this month only make my birthday all the more happier (redundancy intended for emphasis...hehe) even though it's been raining hard these past days. I've also been granted a wonderful favor (not allowed to talk about it yet but will make a mental note to write about it once I receive it) from God through the people I work for and I am just very grateful for the opportunity to work hard and make a contribution.

August has been very busy but it's no longer ghost month for me anymore. I am hoping it won't be in the future once I pursue my dream to become a doctor but whatever happens, I have faith that as I remain steadfast in my walk with God, things are only gonna get better.

Father, you are the giver of perfect gifts. I don't deserve all these things and I'm still struggling to please you with all of me but thank you for not giving up on me. Teach me and help me to overcome my own selfish desires as I learn to fill my heart and mind only with the things that are from you. For the years to come, my desire is to please you and to make your Spirit at home in me even more, until you are king overall...no buts, no ifs. I love you and once again, a BIG thank you! 

A New Beginning

Hello there:)

This is me trying to beat my laziness and write again from my heart. It's been ages since I last visited this site and if you're asking what happened and what changed...well, I have just finished crying while reading my favorite blogger Patty Laurel's beautiful and insightful post on how it has been for her and her newborn Theo in the first 15 days of Theo's life.

No, I cannot relate yet  with how she faced her motherhood struggles but I felt guilty somehow, because there she was struggling to write despite the challenges while here I am, not totally busy 'busy' but for some reason (laziness and procrastination is a big factor), I just gave up on it. And I'm not just talking about keeping an online journal..I mean writing altogether.

And as I sit here on the bed typing just whatever comes to mind, I realized not just how I miss this, but how much I needed this.

And now I'm crying because I am very very sorry. I am sorry because I know in my heart that this was not just a 'phase' but a heart issue. I'm sorry Lord if I've neglected myself..if I allowed myself to be overwhelmed with work, family, ministry and other trivial things that I thought I had a good-enough-excuse for not processing my thoughts and feelings and talk to you this way. I know I've been selfish and have considered myself entitled to do whatever I wanted during my free time 'just because' ___________ [I've been working hard, this is my only enjoyment, etc.]. I have not been faithful...and just when I thought I was doing the right things to recharge myself, you remind me of how you wired me - with thoughts and feelings that I process best as I talk to you through writing.

And this feels good [am referring to both writing and crying..hehe] so as I claim your forgiveness I thank you for drawing me back to this...and I trust that you would grant me the grace to keep going back to the discipline of writing even when the times are tough and the distractions are super distracting..hehe

Now on what to write...I'm no longer going back on the events and thoughts in the past that I considered 'blog-worthy' but was too busy write. Instead, allow me to pour my heart out on what made me come back.

As I read about how Patty rejoices in gratefulness in this most difficult yet rewarding time of her life, I was reminded about the things that made me write. I've always considered writing as therapeutic and when I was younger and attempting to be cool I labeled it as 'writing for sanity'. And while it's true that writing helped me handle my emotions better, I also knew that I could keep my sanity with or without it.

And then I wanted to be socially relevant. I also wanted to inspire and lead people to Jesus. I wanted to spread good vibes with my words and to remind people to 'Always Love.' With this secret journal, I am highly doubtful that I was able to achieve any of those things with my mostly personal, sometimes insightful posts. And with all those things I wanted to but was too shy to accomplish, which translates to a lack of clear purpose, somewhere along the way I just got tired and gave up.

Nowadays I've been busy with the usual things and whatever free time I had, I spent it playing my favorite Cooking Fever [yes, I still want to cook in my games] or reading books. But this afternoon I was reminded of what makes me write...or on a more rudimentary level, what fills my heart.

Then I'm reminded of the words that are hardly absent in all of my writings...the words Thank You. Whether I'm telling a story or keeping a record of my memories and insights, I always end up giving thanks. What would start in angst and intense sadness always ends in thanksgiving, with the hope that Jesus, my Lord and my friend, would come through for me and would fulfill his wonderful plan in my life.

So yes, after months of going around, dilly-dallying and doing a lot of things without really feeling that ooomph [haha..I'm finding it difficult to put it into words] or that  peace and contentment that I'm doing the right things, here I am trying to figure things out and go back to one thing I'm sure I should be doing...not to be sane or to attempt to accomplish something far beyond myself [although it would be a great bonus] but simply because I am GRATEFUL, and this is one way [which I also enjoy] I can express how grateful I am to God for giving me this life, for surrounding me with people who love me and care for me, for putting me right where He wants me to be, at the center of His will [I pray] to worship Him and be the child that He has destined for me to become.

And this is very timely because because...I am turning 26 on Wednesday (August 5, 2015)! Which had me thinking, did I just undergo a quarterlife crisis?..hehe..but seriously, my heart is filled with love, joy and gratefulness for what God has been doing in my life. Awhile ago I thought it would just be another birthday, but thank you Lord for this early gift of soul rejuvenation [I'm not sure how I should call it..haha]. With a renewed sense of gratefulness, I now see with a different perspective the wonder of what you have done, have been doing, and what will continue to do in my life. My wish and prayer is for your will to be revealed and accomplished in the days to come. Help me not be pasaway and resist your plan [but my prayer remains that if it's not your will for me to become a doctor, please don't lead me too far and break my heart] but if I am doing the right thing and not just following me heart but your heart also, please help me remain steadfast even amidst opposition and challenges.

I have already received the ultimate gift through your son Jesus Christ, and I am filled and overflowing with so much love and blessings from You. But you did not stop there. You also honor my heart's desires according to your will and I am very very very very grateful.

I've always said that 2015 is a year of transition for me, and I admit that I have my fears and insecurities. But let them not overwhelm me Lord as I hold on to your perfect love...and the assurance you have given me though your Word that "Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows. [James 1:17]"

And so to You who is the source of a love so great and eternal, unchanging and unfailing; to You who gives the best, not just good but perfect gifts and treats; to You who is the source of joy and peace that never run out and which do not yield to the storms of life; and to You, my Father, my friend, who delights in me and loves me like no other, to You I give all glory, praise and honor for what you have done in the past 26 years, and for what you will continue to do in the next many many more years! I love you Lord and Thank you!


With a grateful heart,
Katy

Young and Old at 25 :)

Loooooong time no see! I've been meaning to get my hands typing again for quite sometime now but it's only now that I got to carry out my plan. In the past months, there were a lot of events I would have wanted to blog about, but time and priorities just won't permit me. So praise God for this opportunity to be able to 'write' again. I had to use ' ' to differentiate it from the formal and more technical writing I do almost everyday...hehe. This one's the less pressured, more personal form of writing that I miss doing :)

So after that long break, allow me to give updates first...
- We're doing great in our new house and I praise God everyday for this wonderful blessing of a home we can call our own. I've had the privilege of letting a friend stay for the night, which meant going beyond our comfort zone, being the introverts that we are. But when we were asking for this house, we prayed that God would grant us the opportunity to welcome people and lead them closer to Him so this is our way of giving back, knowing that we have been blessed to be a blessing :)
- We have just been emancipated from a financial crisis..haha..it really wasn't a crisis by others' standards but acquiring the house depleted our savings so when Ate's salary was delayed for more than a month, it was very difficult for us to manage our income. But thank you Lord for coming through for us and for being our great provider, helping us and leading us to the right people. It taught us a lot of things, and I believe, also strengthened our relationship as siblings (with the frequent family meetings and unceasing prayers..hehe). I hope we came out of it as better stewards of the resources You have given us.
- I'm back to school as a Thomasian...yehey! That's my superego cheering my ego and my id..hehe..but seriously, graduate school is no joke. It's not that difficult in itself, but it's different when I have to juggle it with work. PROOF: Sleeping in the public utility vehicle (jeep/bus/fx) is starting to become normal for me and I'm frequently in danger of going past my destination, which already happened more than twice. It's also a novel yet challenging experience to put oneself to school and pay for everything..haha. It made me appreciate how fortunate I was then when I did not have to be concerned with my tuition fee or allowance because my angels (Ate Via, Ate May, and Ate Jane) took care of everything. People at the office have high expectations- that I would also graduate with Latin honors. But I don't want to mind them because I only end up irritated (I am beginning to feel irritated so I'll end it there). But I'll do my best and really study well to make the most out of the experience, and ultimately, to bring glory to my Father in heaven.
- We have a new member in the cell group- Nona! And I praise God for her and for the opportunity to minister to her and learn from her as we journey together in the Lord. I also praise God for our new Senior Pastor and Youth Pastor and I'm just excited to see and be part of God's work through Fairview Christian Fellowship. The chances that I have readers are slim, but if you (yes you!) happen to come across this post and you are a resident of Fairview, Quezon City or knows someone around the area, consider this as my invitation for you, your family and friends to attend our Church and know more of God's saving love and grace with us :)

This post would be too long to contain all my updates so now I'll proceed to the ultimate update and reason behind this post. As my title would hint, I turned 25 last August 5th! It was an ordinary day turned special with all the warm greetings and gifts I received from people at the office, friends, loved ones, and acquaintances across the globe. I'm currently at that point when I feel both young and old and I'm happy to be both- young and energetic to be able to do a lot of things, and older and a bit wiser to face life's challenges and be a greater blessing to others. I just came from a meeting with Nona and Jam for a catch-up cell group gathering/birthday treat where they surprised me with a cake. They also surprised me with a cake at the office and I truly felt appreciated. Also, last Thursday, Ate Angel, Micah and I were finally able to go out for a late birthday dinner. These little celebrations mean a lot to me as they remind me that I did not waste the past 25 years of my life serving myself only, but doing my best to make an impact in the lives of others who are important to me.

my surprise birthday cake from my Nursing Services Office family!

At 25, I am foremost a daughter of God. And it is from this realization and mission that I am able to play the roles of daughter to Papa, sister to my siblings, a worship leader, a nurse/researcher, a student/classmate, a cell group leader and member, a kingdom worker, a family member, a friend, and a lot more. I sometimes feel that I have a lot of things on my plate but as I reflect on it, I know that the little time I have is from God, and I want to spend it meaningfully and intentionally in creating an impact in the lives of others; so that they would also know Christ through me and experience how amazing it is to live with Him and for Him. It's a difficult role to take and I am not always successful; but I keep on trying, knowing that God sees and appreciates my little efforts.

So I say thank you Lord for the privilege of knowing and serving you, and for giving meaning and purpose to my life. I still do not know what the future holds, but I'm enjoying every season, trusting that you have a wonderful plan for me. I have no idea how long my journey here on earth would be, but I am content and assured in knowing that I have you to welcome me at the end. Lead me as I go on with this journey, hopeful that at the very end, I will give you my sweetest smile, and you will smile back at me, pleased and glad because I have been a good and faithful servant :)

I love you, I live for you, and I pray that I would remain in you until the very end:)

Your striving to be a good and faithful servant,

Katy  

Gratefully Twenty-three

I almost got settled with the idea of just letting this month pass by without a decent post. I thought, 'who reads my blog anyway?' But this isn't just another month, it's my birth month and I want this entry to be a testimony of how much God has blessed me.

I've gotten my biggest wish for the year- I am now a practicing hospital nurse, and although it has been tough, even physically and emotionally draining at times, I am very grateful to the Lord for giving me this job that I love. It has made me give up a lot things that I enjoy doing and offer a major part of myself for others (all aspects included); but the rewards go beyond the salary I get twice a month, and while I may be hungry and tired on the outside, I am humbled and privileged to take part in God's ministry of healing for a lot of people deep inside. It was more challenging to come to work this past weeks with the typhoons and floods I had to brave just to reach the hospital while my sisters were resting peacefully at home, but I know that God isn't blind to our sacrifices, and the fact that I am sickness-free and feeling healthy even with all the meals missed is already a BIG blessing I'm very thankful for.

I just wish my schedule would permit me to still lend my talents and service to our local church. I miss singing and worship leading big time; basically I miss going to church on a Sunday morning..haha. I haven't met with my cell group for weeks, haven't been physically in touch with friends, and have adjusted my quiet time and devotion to fit my erratic schedule. But I am confident that God sees the desires of my heart, and I know that my service to Him isn't limited to these means, so aside from dutifully performing the requirements of my job, I focus the limited time I have to praying, and some of my resources to giving more. Thank you Lord for your generosity, for allowing me to take part in advancing your kingdom, and for giving me unlimited opportunities to give back and to give glory to your Name.

I am, as always, grateful for my family. They've been supportive of this new phase in my life, and just having them around is already a big stress buffer. Micah got sick recently for 2 days, but God has been very good. He did not only heal her, but he also made sure we had the resources to support her. God has, and has always been my faithful provider, and I am very thankful that he enables me to share my blessings to others as well.

My actual birthdate this year has been rainy and peaceful. I was from night duty but I had the day off so after a few chores and a short rest, celebration na! Papa would have wanted to come and celebrate with us but his work didn't allow him to; nevertheless, his presence was more than felt especially with his frequent calls. :) I got to try and eat at Aristocrat for the first time, got to see Brave, and just spend time with my loved ones. It could have been a normal day, but even that realization opened my eyes to the many blessings that I tend to miss out sometimes. So now I say thank you Lord for giving me the privilege to treat even if it isn't my birthday, for the many frequent opportunities you've been giving us to spend time together, enjoying good food with the best company, and for making each day so special it's difficult for my birthday to stand out anymore...hahaha    

For You who make all things work, all things beautiful, all things meaningful, all things new, all things perfect- even though it's beyond my mind's capacity to understand most of the time, I give my LIFE and my BIGGEST THANKS!!! You are my refuge and my stronghold, and I know that the many more years to come in my life are secured by your perfect love that drives out all my fears away, day by day.

The past 23 years have been a blast with you, and I can't wait to see the wonderful blessings and promises you still have in store!:) I love you Lord!!!!


Ever grateful,

Katy

Happy Birthday Micah!!!

This is my younger/est sister Micah...and she's celebrating her birthday today.

At 17, she still looks like a grade school student, but with God's grace, I can say that she has the wisdom that matches and at times surpasses her age. At 22, I'm too old to be her best friend so I just stick to the usual role of being an older sister. But she, on the other hand, has been more than a younger sister to me. She's been a very good listener, thought processor, helper, supporter, adviser, mojo booster, and so much more; especially at times when my maturity goes on hiatus and the unstable, undesirable part of my personality takes over. On top of being an obedient and loving sister to Ate Angel and I, she can also be the neutral, balancing force that could keep us from hurting each other whenever we would get into small fights, which unfortunately, may happen rarely to frequently depending on the season.

I don't think I've ever had an argument with her, because it's just usually one-sided (referring to myself). I haven't seen her get mad or irritated at me or at other people; she has always been sweet, kind, thoughtful and funny and we are so blessed to have her as our family's gem. We sometimes call her 'baby' which she does not like, but that's who she is to us. Maybe when she gets older, we'll be less protective, but until then, we'll still be her 'atribida' sisters who only want the best for her.

Micah, I don't know if you even read this blog but when you get the chance, I want you to know that we do love you very much and we'll always be here to support you and guide you the best way we can. Take the life lessons I share to heart, filtering them as well and combining them with the values we've been raised with, and the wisdom that comes from our Father God, continuously studying His Word and allowing yourself to be transformed with his refining power, through the tests and challenges that will be thrown your way.

There are so much things yet to be learned, but my wish for your birthday this year is for God to clearly reveal His will in your life, especially in terms of which career path to take. Whatever it is, we'll always be here to support you all the way. Have a joyful and blessed birthday!


Lots of love,
Ate Katy