Tuesday, April 11, 2023

Happy Birthday My Love 💖

 Dearest Ivan,

My recent IG posts about you and about us were outside my comfort zone, but I wanted to show you how grateful I am to you and for you. So when you assured me in one of our talks that social media posts are not necessary, and that you feel loved and appreciated with the usual things I do, I thought of doing something else for your birthday...like welcoming you to my semi-private space..haha

A year ago I was just convincing myself that you were asking me out on your birthday as a good friend, but we have come a long way:). When I greeted you on your 25th, I never imagined that I would be greeting you this way on your 26th, that you would earn a spot in my space, and that you would become a very important person in my life. The past year reminded me that God's ways and thoughts are higher than mine, but I can trust Him because He not only loves me, but He is also the giver of perfect gifts:)

You are one of His best gifts, and so far, the most wonderful surprise😊

I thank the Lord each day for giving you to me and as He adds another year to your life, I pray for his favor and special blessing upon you and all that you do. May your knowledge and wisdom continue to increase, loving God more as you know more about Him. May He continue to equip you to lead our relationship and the people He's entrusted you with in your ministry. May He grant the wishes of your heart, and may you always be filled with strength, hope, joy, and everything You will need to achieve great and mighty things for God and your family:)

I love you and I will always be here to support you!

Happy birthday again my love! I hope you enjoyed our advance celebrations pero kahit work day na today, I hope you enjoy your day! Sana walang masyadong challenges sa work pero 'pag meron, sana maayos agad para di ka stressed..hehe

I love you!



Love,

Katy


P.S. I'll grab our most recent photos from you so I can update this:)

Wednesday, June 1, 2022

HS Grad Inspirational Message

Someone got invited and served as inspirational speaker/guest of honor during the Junior and Senior High School graduation of my alma mater in elementary...haha

I wrote my speech with much difficulty, because the event was a few days after the elections. How can I inspire others if I'm feeling discouraged myself? But God used that event to remind me of His promises and I can only attribute finishing the message in 3 hours to His divine intervention; so I'm saving a copy here. I drew inspiration from my own experiences and some principles from The Significant Woman course:)

To the school administrators, officers, teachers and staff, parents, and to the proud JUNIOR/SENIOR HIGH SCHOOL graduates, a pleasant good morning to all!

 

I can only imagine how happy you must be feeling to have a face-to-face graduation ceremony after years of not seeing your friends in person due to the restrictions imposed by the pandemic. I am a bit envious as I did not have this opportunity. I graduated, interned, took the board exam, passed and became a doctor all during the pandemic and kumbaga sa relationship, parang walang closure, so I am glad you get to have this experience, and I am even more privileged to be part of it. 

 

I can still remember the speaker and the message when I graduated from elementary here in LZDS many years ago. She was a lady of advanced age, in pink, and she shared about the parable of the talents, a story from the Bible which I hope is known to all of you, and which says, “Those who proved faithful with little things will be entrusted with more, and to those who were not, even what they have will be taken away.” I carried that message with me, although today, I won’t be telling the same story but my prayer before I begin is that you’ll listen like I did that day, and that you’ll be able to pick up a thing or two that you can carry with you even many years from now. My goal isn’t to impress, and I thought hard about how I can encourage and inspire you this morning, so instead of talking about a foreign story anyone can deliver, I decided to share my own, and highlight the wisdom from God’s Word that I’ve held on to and have brought me to where I am now. 

 

When I was your age, a typical middle child at that, I had no idea what I wanted to do in life. I had talents, but I was not passionate about anything, and it didn’t help, modesty aside, that I was good at a lot of things, so there I was applying for entirely unrelated courses in different schools. Some people are innately go-getters, and if you are one, who knows exactly what you want to do and how to get there, good for you; but if there are some among you who were like me then, just going through the motions, I can tell you from experience that it’s ok, you’ll get there. But the question is how do you get there? Will you avoid doing anything until you’re completely sure? No. You still have to decide what course or strand to take; and by this time, I believe most of you have already chosen. So what should we do? We pursue it. That is Lesson # 1. Pursue your unique calling. That is also the gist of this entire message and if you take that to heart, my work here is done. At the risk of sounding cliché I would still say it – We are all created unique. Our gender, physical make-up, personality type, strengths, weaknesses, gifts, values and belief system, life experiences, skills and abilities, and key relationships all make up our uniqueness. And I would like to emphasize the word PURSUE, because it is not a one time thing. My 16, 18 year old self had absolutely no idea that I will become a doctor at this age. But I got here by pursuing my calling at that moment – to be a good student; then my next calling after that, and the next. 

 

So continuing my graduating from high school story, after much prayer and discernment, considering all my strengths and weaknesses, my calling was still not clear, but what worked for me was to honor may parents’s advice.I know there are parents in the crowd who are probably pleased with that message but allow me to emphasize that I was in limbo at that time and had no idea what I wanted. But that is lesson # 2, let me say it again, honor your parents. It is also the first commandment with a promise. The Bible says “that it may go well with you.”.  And I can attest that it did with me and my sisters. If you do not have your parents, you can refer to the key relationships in your life, the people who truly know you and love you. They were placed in your life for a reason. And when in doubt, you can turn to them for affirmation and wisdom on the next steps you must take.

 

So I took up Nursing, and eventually found my niche in the healthcare profession. Being in healthcare is challenging, physically and mentally, and it would be very hypocritical of me to not admit that I questioned myself many times, “Is this the right field for me?”. So now let me share with you what kept me going, Lesson No. 3 – Always do your best. A permanent attachment as a footer in all my emails is Colossians 3:23 which says, “Whatever you do, work heartily, as for the Lord and not for men.” Whether it’s a simple homework, a reading assignment, or a major exam, let the acid test be “Did I do my best?” In a result-driven world, your best will not be the same each time. There will be excellent bests but there will also be so-so bests and that’s ok for as long as you can look at yourself in the mirror and honestly say that I did my best. I recently had an 18 year old patient who consulted due to intermittent, unpredictable palpitations. She had no prior history of a heart or thyroid problem and even after thorough assessment I could not find a possible physical focus that can explain her condition, except that she was very thin so I considered Micronutrient Deficiency. She also had poor sleeping habits so I explored on that as well.  I asked her about her usual day. She’s also a student. So I asked her achiever ka ba? Dati daw pero hindi na ngayon. Then I said, pero natututunan mo naman yung dapat mong matutunan? Yes daw. Then I told her yun naman pala, Best Effort lang tayo ate. Pag di na kaya, pahinga ka na. And then she suddenly cried in front of me, so aside from medications we also did some counseling. I had to remind her that the “BEST” of every individual in different fields or situations is also unique. We cannot force ourselves to pursue the calling of others, but until we get to a position where you can choose that very specific path you want to pursue, I encourage you to keep doing your best; for you will never discover what you’re truly good at if you settle with mediocrity.  And it will not only help you discover your calling with clarity, it will also build your character.

 

So I did keep doing my best. I was committed to being the best nurse I can be. Because I have been doing my best, I was aware of my limits, and I was confident that I could do more. I thought it was within the nursing profession, so I enrolled in a masteral program; but just when I was about to enter 2nd semester, God opened a door for me, when I was offered the opportunity to enter medical school. I asked God, Lord why now? God has His own timeline but the most obvious answer was we never could have afforded it if I went straight from nursing to med school. My father is an excellent provider but he was aware of his limits and he was careful not to enter into something he could not sustain, and break all our hearts in the process. And I understood that, so I committed to growing where I was planted, as a nurse. But my Lord and Creator had bigger plans, and my only role was to decide whether to take the plunge or not. It was still in healthcare, so I knew God was not trying to confuse me, but it was a whole new different level that would require a drastic change in all of my plans. I’m a doctor now so you can guess what I chose, but it wasn’t as easy at it sounds. It was the most difficult lesson that I had to learn in pursuing my calling  - Lesson # 4, Take courage and get out of your comfort zone. I took one full year to decide but at the same time I already took steps towards that possibility so I balanced work with reviewing for the NMAT and looking into the application requirements of different schools. The Word from God that I held on to was James 1: 17 which says “Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.” The opportunity to become a doctor was a good gift, but I had to test if it was perfect. I talked to my family, explored scholarship options, and looked for ways to make the transition as smooth as possible. And up to this day, the Lord has been proving to me that it was indeed a perfect gift, because it was from Him. If I decided to stay in my calling as a nurse then, I imagine I would still be in a good place, but I would’ve missed out on all the challenges, the adventures, and the opportunity to do more for my patients. And isn’t that what pursuing our calling and living a life of significance is all about – to be able to help and extend God’s love to others. In your not so far future, you’ll find yourselves choosing between equally good options too; and when you are clearly called to jump in, I hope that you too, will find the courage just do it, and entrust your journey to God.

 

I believe that’s long enough, so now allow to me summarize the lessons I’ve shared with you today:

Lesson 1 Pursue your unique calling

Lesson 2 Honor your parents

Lesson 3 Always do your best

Lesson 4 Take courage and get out of your comfort zone

 

I have more, in the same manner that you’ll collect your own life lessons as you continue in this journey. Don’t be too excited to get older; instead, focus on pursuing your calling at this moment, and allow God to lead you to the next. Congratulations and I pray that you’ll all discover your personal mission and aim for lives of significance all for the glory of God!

 

Thank you very much!

Pandemic Life Updates

 Hello...it's been a while:)

A lot has happened to me since I graduated from medical school so updates are in order:

August 2021-July 2022 - Post-grad internship during the pandemic. Aside from a very short period when we were allowed to volunteer on site, I was an e-ntern for almost the entire duration of internship. But what we lacked in patient interactions, we compensated in terms of lectures, case discussions and return demos. I used to envy some batchmates who only met for sessions a few hours in a day; but now that I am performing roles as a physician, I am grateful for God's grace to still maximize that opportunity. Now I am able to apply the knowledge I have learned and I can see how fortunate we are to have learned all that during internship.

July - October 2022 - very stressful months reviewing for the board exams in a short period without certainty if it will push through or will be postponed; but God's grace was more than sufficient. Initially, when it was still allowed, the FEU-NRMF Library became my daily cool spot as I was having difficulty focusing at home. I needed a quiet but new environment and I thank you Lord for the very accommodating library staff who opened the aircon even when I was reviewing alone in the area..huhu.. Sadly, it had to be closed when stricter community quarantine guidelines were imposed. During that period, I am especially grateful for my Virtual Library classmates - Hannah, Kirs, Ags, Marionne, Helen, and Aubrey as we became each other's support system during the review. We met, prayed and studied daily, kasama na din lahat ng iyak, rants and chismis...haha... I even revived my old twitter account to be one with Batch 2020  in our frustrations regarding the conduct of the exam. But encouraging and strengthening each other prevailed and now we are all full-fledged doctors. We may have taken different paths now but I don't want to forget that aside from my family, it was them who kept me sane during that very stressful season.

November 2022 - became a licensed physician still during the pandemic; took my oath, and was accepted for my first job as a physician

My thoughts: Until now, I feel like that chapter of my life has not formally closed yet, having failed to experience a face to face graduation and a proper oath taking (the internet signal was very bad at the end of the organizers so we were clueless about what was happening...haha). It felt like 'it just passed', rather than 'I finished!'; but I also understand the adjustments we had to make given the pandemic. So this is just me trying to deal with my unsettled feelings about it..haha

December 2022 - formally started working as a research trial physician. I'm still with the team at present, while also doing some QCProtektodo volunteer work on my free days. I am grateful for all that I've learned, the people I've met and worked with, and the opportunity to be productive in this season of rest and discernment on the next path to take, particularly which residency training to pursue. A memorable period when I really felt God's grace strengthening and protecting me daily was during the Omicron surge in January 2022. Many staff got sick and had to go on quarantine so we had to make up for their share in the work. Almost all the patients I've been in close contact with and recommended for swabbing turned out to be positive, but I didn't get it. I was tired, yes, but I told God I'd rather be working more, than resting at home because of COVID..huhu..Thank you Lord for the sustenance and extra layer of protection then and now. I just got my 2nd booster last Friday (perks of being a QCProtektodo volunteer) and I am grateful for your favor each day.

Ministry-wise, I have also been part our church's medical ministry and was able to join the team in a medical mission in Bulacan last April. Thank you Lord for the opportunity to share this gift/calling you have given me to be of service to others, and hopefully lead them to knowing You as well as Lord and Savior. Monday nights are for the weekly Doctors in Touch prayer meeting and I have also been learning much from them in the area of prayer. Aside from the girls I lead in our small group, I am also grateful for the opportunity to lead 2 The Significant Woman groups - one with my medschool friends and another with good friends from church, with the encouragement from Doc/Tita Elfie. She prayed for me when she challenged me to start a new TSW group and instead of just one, I now have two..haha.. I am also grateful for her and Doc Lem for being my first bosses as a medical doctor. They exhibit servant leadership at work and I admire Doc Elfie's meticulousness in assessing patients. I have also been learning from her management decisions which I am able to apply in my stint as a volunteer doctor at a nearby health center. When they first asked me to see patients for consult even though it was not part of our job description as vaccine screeners, I said yes out of compassion and andun na din naman ako. But as always, I can never outgive God. I can say that I am gaining more from the experience because not only am I able to practice my skill and put my knowledge to good use, but the experience has also been instrumental in helping me narrow my choices for residency training:)

But aside from all the career upates, there have also been recent developments in another aspect of my life...haha...will keep that in a separate draft for now until I'm ready to share..haha..in case anyone accidentally reaches this blog.

This is just me wanting to have something to look back to months and years from now to remind me of your faithfulness in my life Lord. I'm sorry if I did not take the surprises well initially..haha..I hope I'm doing better now. But in all things, just help me to walk your path, and lead me back when I lose my way. You are my anchor and my personal life mission remains - for my life to be a living worship to your name...in all things! 

P.S. I still haven't scheduled our date at the Prayer Mountain. One of these days I'll just do it. I'm sorry if I've been distracted as well. Help me clear my mind if I must Lord..haha..May I never be too busy to spend undistracted time with you:)