DILEMMA: PRACTICALITY vs. SELF-DEPRIVATION

I really need to be able to draw the line. Actually, I didn't think of it as a concern until this morning, when I refused to buy breakfast, and our administrator, Ms. Madel, offered to lend me money, the one I paid for our Jollibee dinner the previous night. I just didn't want to buy because since I was going home that morning, I intended to eat at home. I also wasn't hungry, I was SLEEPY and I didn't want to relieve it with anything other than sleep. But it still got me thinking, "Nagmumukha na ba akong kawawa?" I don't usually mind what others think of me for as long as I'm assured that I'm not doing anything wrong, although in this case, having others take pity on me, for me, is an insult to my family especially to Papa who provides for us, and to my God who's the source of all my blessings. We aren't rich but I give credit to Papa who provided us with everything we needed, including wants every now and then; and to my Lord, Father God in heaven, who never allowed us to lack in anything. His grace is abundant in our lives and I want people to see that, so Lord I ask for wisdom and for guidance in making the right investments, and in spending my money wisely. It's food, so it's a need but I don't want to buy just because everyone's buying. Maybe I should just share more, yes, that's probably the way to do it. After all, I find it easier to spend for others than for myself. It's just the 3rd day of work so they still do not know me and I also do not know them yet but I want to be able to leave good, lasting impressions even when I'm no longer working with them. (thoughts like this just on the 3rd day...bad..tsk..tsk..tsk)

...so I guess that's it, dilemma solved.

P.S.

Thank you Father for your word in Matthew 6:25

Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes?


...and Papa called me today. I didn't realize I miss talking to him that much until he called. Thank you Papa for always making the effort. Most of your calls are not in good timing, but we're grateful that you're always around, when we need you most, and when we don't think we need you. Love you much! meow