Greater Grace

As my problems get bigger and tougher, Your grace gets greater and GREATER....

Changing Times

This is probably the third or fourth instance that my body automatically woke up just when the world is still beginning to sleep. It seems my body clock's getting used to the frequent night duties I've had for the past two months, and this worried me at first, with thoughts of insomnia and being unproductive when I need to stressing my already stressed mind.

One night I turned to God, to talking to Him and reading His Word, hoping it would lull me to sleep (yes, wrong motives...haha). I didn't fall asleep though, and I was able to pray specifically for many items I would just generalize before to make the prayers shorter. I was also able to read the Bible in a relaxed and expectant mood without fighting the urge to fall asleep which was what usually happened in the past.

So here I am, making the most of it instead of just closing my eyes hoping to get back to sleep. After all, just because I can't sleep at night doesn't mean I can't get adequate sleep. And truly, if there's a will, there's a way! This I proved when I washed my hospital uniforms the other night in my desire to be productive...haha.

So I'm embracing this new season in my life. I'm still hoping though that this wouldn't last long, because I really miss going to church on a Sunday morning, spending time with my friends and family without feeling all tired and sleepy. I also don't feel like cooking at night...haha

So while a wait for a possible change of sched, I'll look for other things to do.

Thank you Lord for the amazing strength you give me each day, for maximizing my intermittent rest periods, and for being a God I can talk to 24/7.

Good morning!
Maybe later I'll say good night!

Gratefully Twenty-three

I almost got settled with the idea of just letting this month pass by without a decent post. I thought, 'who reads my blog anyway?' But this isn't just another month, it's my birth month and I want this entry to be a testimony of how much God has blessed me.

I've gotten my biggest wish for the year- I am now a practicing hospital nurse, and although it has been tough, even physically and emotionally draining at times, I am very grateful to the Lord for giving me this job that I love. It has made me give up a lot things that I enjoy doing and offer a major part of myself for others (all aspects included); but the rewards go beyond the salary I get twice a month, and while I may be hungry and tired on the outside, I am humbled and privileged to take part in God's ministry of healing for a lot of people deep inside. It was more challenging to come to work this past weeks with the typhoons and floods I had to brave just to reach the hospital while my sisters were resting peacefully at home, but I know that God isn't blind to our sacrifices, and the fact that I am sickness-free and feeling healthy even with all the meals missed is already a BIG blessing I'm very thankful for.

I just wish my schedule would permit me to still lend my talents and service to our local church. I miss singing and worship leading big time; basically I miss going to church on a Sunday morning..haha. I haven't met with my cell group for weeks, haven't been physically in touch with friends, and have adjusted my quiet time and devotion to fit my erratic schedule. But I am confident that God sees the desires of my heart, and I know that my service to Him isn't limited to these means, so aside from dutifully performing the requirements of my job, I focus the limited time I have to praying, and some of my resources to giving more. Thank you Lord for your generosity, for allowing me to take part in advancing your kingdom, and for giving me unlimited opportunities to give back and to give glory to your Name.

I am, as always, grateful for my family. They've been supportive of this new phase in my life, and just having them around is already a big stress buffer. Micah got sick recently for 2 days, but God has been very good. He did not only heal her, but he also made sure we had the resources to support her. God has, and has always been my faithful provider, and I am very thankful that he enables me to share my blessings to others as well.

My actual birthdate this year has been rainy and peaceful. I was from night duty but I had the day off so after a few chores and a short rest, celebration na! Papa would have wanted to come and celebrate with us but his work didn't allow him to; nevertheless, his presence was more than felt especially with his frequent calls. :) I got to try and eat at Aristocrat for the first time, got to see Brave, and just spend time with my loved ones. It could have been a normal day, but even that realization opened my eyes to the many blessings that I tend to miss out sometimes. So now I say thank you Lord for giving me the privilege to treat even if it isn't my birthday, for the many frequent opportunities you've been giving us to spend time together, enjoying good food with the best company, and for making each day so special it's difficult for my birthday to stand out anymore...hahaha    

For You who make all things work, all things beautiful, all things meaningful, all things new, all things perfect- even though it's beyond my mind's capacity to understand most of the time, I give my LIFE and my BIGGEST THANKS!!! You are my refuge and my stronghold, and I know that the many more years to come in my life are secured by your perfect love that drives out all my fears away, day by day.

The past 23 years have been a blast with you, and I can't wait to see the wonderful blessings and promises you still have in store!:) I love you Lord!!!!


Ever grateful,

Katy