'Insights' from Starting Over Again :p

I just saw Starting Over Again starring Piolo Pascual, Toni Gonzaga, and Iza Calzado, courtesy of Maam Neriz and I'm all smiles not just because I got to watch it for free...hehe...but more because I really really liked and enjoyed the movie.

I can't believe I'm saying this (but no one reads this anyway so I'll spill it) but it makes me hope for a love that would just free me of all my fears. The movie quoted a phrase in one of my favorite verses:

There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

1 John 4:18

I admire Ginny's bravery, yet between her and Patty, she was the fearsome one. She knew how it was to live with regret each day, so when she saw Marco again, she was willing to give it her all, including wrong actions and decisions, just to be certain whether they still have that second chance or not. Patty on the other hand has that grace, love, and security in her that enabled her to forgive Marco even when there was already reason to doubt his love for her. And I think I'm more of a Patty, not particularly in that aspect because I have yet to find out (not that I want to find it out in a similar way), but more in terms of handling competition, especially for love. Knowing myself, I'm not the type who would really fight to the nail to be loved back because I don't like competitions in general. My manner of being competitive is doing my best and leaving the results to God, because while I know how it feels to win, I also know how it is to feel less and it's something I would not wish to anybody. So like Patty, my way of handling competitions is "if it's me, it's me; if not, then it's just the way it is", and I would not regret anything because I gave it my best...ibang usapan lang if I know that it wasn't my best shot.

When the time comes, I hope to be able to love without fear, secured in God's love for me, and in the knowledge that my partner is God's son, and his very own personal choice for me as well...haay...it's amazing what a movie can do, or sa'kin lang...haha

Father God...the longing is intensified little by little each day...I have a feeling that your set time is nearing...may I be able to look forward to it in excitement and not in fear...secured in your promises and assured that you LOVE me so much and you only have the BEST in store for me.

Thank you Lord for this happy weekend!