We finished all the exams last Saturday, and it’s now waiting time, which for me is no less difficult than knowing the results, because no matter how bad the news is, at least you already have a clear course of action.
I was just in the same situation last Thursday. I was in limbo, because I was praying hard to be exempted for an exam, yet I also know that I was praying for a miracle because realistically speaking, my scores in one area won’t make it, even if I got high scores in the two major exams. I reasoned that God is never short of miracles, but as I prayed, I felt that He was already preparing my heart to receive another miracle, not the one I was asking for.
I sought for His saving grace, but He was bent on giving me something better, his sustaining grace. It was the fifth day of exams and I was tired so I was really praying for a reprieve, especially because I knew that the final exams would be the most difficult. But as I prayed and read God’s Word, he reminded me that His grace is sufficient for me, for His power is made perfect in my weakness (2 Cor 12:9). I wanted the easy way out, but the Lord, in His great wisdom, had better plans. Yet I was also so sure, that if he would make me take the exams, He would also graciously provide me with the strength to overcome and emerge victorious, not because I was good, but because I surrendered and relied on Him. To God be all the glory!
So I say thank you Lord for always answering my prayers. I know that if you had allowed me to be exempted, I would praise you as well, but it just so happened that you had a different lesson to teach me this time. I will still pray to be exempted next semester. I hope to do better, but I also thank you for enabling me to give my best this semester. I know I have, given the circumstances and conflicting priorities at times. I had my share of failures as well, but you never left me and you always helped me to get back on track each time I asked for forgiveness.
I thank you that although I’m also waiting for the results, it’s not to check whether I passed or not but whether I would be able to maintain my scholarship. And in that area, I can never thank you enough because I also know that no matter what happens, you will provide for me and my family.
And so I pray for you to speak of the same reassurance and peace to all my classmates who are troubled right now. I pray that they would know of your saving grace, power, and unending love, that they may also experience the peace that surpasses all understanding, but which can only come from you.
I know that you are in charge. Let your will be done Lord!
