Tests and Triumphs

I'm home and chillin' on a Monday night, praise God! I ditched work, with leave notice of course, but the decision came just as I was preparing to go. I have my Ate Angel to thank for this peaceful restful night, for telling me to just come to work tomorrow :) And because I feel the need to justify myself, in all fairness naman, I was up and about all day, studying in the morning, and settling requirements+exams in the evening.

The past 3 weeks have been among the fastest days of my life. It was a phase of transition that I welcomed and prayed for, that had it's share of stresses and challenges, but which certainly did not overwhelm my realization of God's floods of blessings in my life. 

The past 3 weeks gave me a preview of how my life would go a few weeks from now (fingers crossed) when I finally go back to being a hospital nurse. I was always tired, I actually now have a higher threshold for tiredness and pain, but I felt at home, learning as I work and loving what I do.

Tomorrow I'll be back temporarily to being an office/remote monitoring nurse. It's a field I never thought I'd be doing at the beginning of my nursing career, but God had different plans, and I'll make sure to write a post about my TechTouch, Inc. family when my time with them is over, for more drama...haha

So what I'm trying to arrive at with this post...umm...I guess I just want to proclaim how good God is in my life. On top of the blessing of being able to work, I've recently had BIG, MAJOR lessons in honesty, compassion, patience, trust, love, respect, and selflessness through the experiences I've had with my patients and coworkers. It is very very very difficult to do what is right at all times and I do fail most of the time no matter how good my intentions are. There are worse moments- when I have this strong impulse to just leave things as they are and just think about myself alone; but I thank God that He is faithful, that His love always reminds me of my responsibility to love others too, and that even though what's right is so hard and painful to do, I must do it, because when I do, He has also promised that I won't be doing it alone.

Jesus, thank you for carrying me through :) All the challenges, I know they're for my good because I felt in the past weeks na bumabait po talaga ako...hahaha. I know you won't test me beyond what I can endure so as I let you take full control of my life, help me do as I should, for the love of you, and for the glory of your name.

Here's a song about allowing God to change our lives from glory to glory.
Jesus, may it always be your heart within me beating for the people I serve and meet each day.
I'm still masungit, but I've improved a lot already with your guidance so I'm positive that I'll get to 'MOST KIND' one day:)

So Blessed

Waaah...what can I say?!... I'm elated, excited, with just a bit of sadness that usually comes with big changes in my life. This day marks my very soon comeback to being Maam Katy again...and no, not as a teacher...kundi bilang isang NARS...hahaha!

Thank you Lord! Haay Lord, the irony of life talaga. Just a few weeks ago, I was again attacked by feelings of inadequacy, impatience, and not seeming to have a clear direction in life. And just as when I surrendered them all to you once again, here you go, surprising me with the best of surprises, and proving to me that you are at my life's helm; therefore, I shall not want, I shall not doubt, I shall not feel weary...

Naiiyak na naman po ako...haha...so once again, THANK YOU! not just for this blessing, but for taking full control of my life. I hope to pay it forward soon:)

I love you very much!

,Katy:)

Reference: Watercolor Painting

I still haven't given up on my dream to take up painting as a hobby someday...haha..and I found this blog site by watercolor and mixed media artist that generously offers painting tips and lessons. I cannot understand some of the terminologies though; but I still would like to keep a link to the site here in case I forget in future.

JohnLovett.com

Watercolor was also the medium that I used when I first gave painting a shot in high school...at kahit cheap lang ang watercolor ko, my artistic side miraculously came out and it made me begin to think that I am not left-handed for nothing..:)

Like me, you also probably had this watercolor brand..haha..I don't know if this is the cheapest brand available and it's also difficult to use compared to the tube kind...medyo effort to mix it with water, dapat ikiskis ang brush sa matigas na color palette; given that, it's even more difficult to mix the colors, but my childhood/elementary years would probably be incomplete without having experienced using this...and with the free brush, pasok sa value for money...haha:)

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I was in high school when I discovered the kind in tubes, which, over this palette of hard watercolor slabs, would certainly get my vote. I hope to try other kinds in the future when I get the chance to take painting seriously. My sisters would just probably laugh at me again for all this painting dream baloney but I intend to do the things that make me happy little by little. Habang may buhay, may pag-asa,  so with a strong conviction, I really believe that I'll be able to paint again someday:)